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I have been rubbish at keeping this blog up to date. I have to get better, because I really want it as a record!

The last few weeks have been exhausting. So much has been going on. 

After finding out we were having a little girl, I was on a complete high. It was so lovely to know after the scan everything was ok and we had a daughter! I felt I could really start to bond with her. I started buying cute little bits and pieces for her. David was thrilled too. His face at the scan will be something I will always remember. We had my mum and sister waiting outside too, and he told them it was a little girl, and hearing him say that was one of the best feelings ever. While we were waiting for the notes and everything to be finished after the scan, we sat there all emotional, holding hands. It was amazing. The next day he text me 'how are my girls doing?' I think thats my favourite text he has ever sent. He's going to be an amazing dad. He will spoil Lily rotten! I can imagine her becoming a little daddys girl. I can't tell you how much I love David, and how happy it makes me we're going to have our little girl together. Its made me love him more than ever, which I didn't thing was possible. We are bonded in a new way and it's an amazing feeling. And even though I haven't met her yet, I love our Lily Belle Rose so so much. I think the moment my David holds her in his arms my heart may explode. 

The last few weeks have been tough though. Lots of worry and stresses. our financial situation isn't great, and finding a house is hard. I have been so worried and emotional, and then I feel guilty for being stressed because I know it isn't good for Lily, and that makes me more emotional. 

And Im not well. I kept having moments where I would go very dizzy and faint, and then started to actually faint. I fainted on the bus, in the street, at work. I spoke to  a doctor about it, and she told me not to worry, it was normal in pregnancy and I just had to get on with it. So I did, I was still going to work, feeling awful, weak, tired, and fainting randomly which was getting worrying. But after being told by a doctor it was normal, I felt I just had to deal with it. Then I went for my check up, and the doctor didnt think my heart sounded good and send=t me for blood tests, which have shown Im dangerously anaemic, which is why I've been feeling so awful. So now Im on high doses of iron, and off work for a little while. I feel so useless and frustrated, and am desperate to get better. I am tired and breathless and weak all the time and just feel rubbish! Hopefully, the iron will work soon and I will be able to get back to normal.

But Lily is doing well, which is the most important thing. Getting to 24 weeks when she is 'viable' was such a nice feeling. Her chances of survival if born now are over 50%. As you can see from the picture, she's growing big! and her kicks are getting so strong!! And she is so responsive to things. On fireworks night, I could feel her jump at all the bangs, which was so cute! If anything rests against my tummy, even very lightly, she tries to kick it away. If I stroke my tummy, she follows my hand with hers. It is lovely :) David has been kicked in the face by her when he rested his head against my tummy, and he has been able to watch her kicks too which is amazing! While we are still living at home, we don't get to see each other very often, but the times when we can sit and cuddle, and feel our little girl wriggle about makes all the worry, stress and pain worth it. I cannot wait until the three of us are together as a proper little family!

x

p.s: sorry for the rubbishy phone picture. my camera is being a pain. I will try and get some better pictures soon!

Lily Belle Rose Gower

we had our 20 week scan today. we have a healthy baby girl! our little Lily Belle Rose Gower. so so happy :)

x

19 weeks ♥

I have really neglected this blog because of rubbish memory card readers! I will get better at updating this blog though, I really want to use it to document the pregnancy.

I am 19 weeks!!!!!!! I cant believe how fast its going. We're nearly halfway through! 

I have a job now, at body shop, which I actually really love :) everyones really lovely, and they knew I was pregnant when they hired me so Im so lucky they did! I have to give facials to customers and do their makeup and advise them on their skincare routine, and Im really enjoying it :) I still have my shop going, but its nice to have some regular income now! 

Im getting stretching pains, which are making sleeping tricky, and Im extra emotional at the moment. I cry at everything! A woman bought her newborn baby boy into work this work, and I had to go to the stockroom because I got teary! I even got emotional when looking at baby clothes in boots the other day, haha, its getting a bit ridiculous! but other than that, Im feeling really good at the moment :) my cravings are cheese strings and chocolate, particularly crunchies!! 

Baby is getting really strong! Im getting some really big kicks now, and David felt it kick for the first time last week!!!!!! It was so lovely, Im only seeing David about once a week at the moment while he lives in swindon with his mum, so it was so nice he was the first to feel, it was like the baby was showing off for daddy :) since then my little brother and mum have felt it too!

Our 20 week scan is next monday, and I am so excited!!!! we have decided we want to find out the sex :) eeeeeeee!

hope everyones well :)

x 

16 weeks!

we have reached 16 weeks!! yay!!! and bump is definately growing. I got my first comment from a stranger last week too! a woman in town came up to me and tell me how lovely I look, and how I look like I'm having a very radiant pregnancy, which put a big smile on my face :) 

my 16 weeks check went really well, everythings good, and babys heartbeat was lovely and strong. I've been feeling rough since then though, I got some sickness again as well as a nasty cold, and got very dehydrated and fainted. Luckily, everythings fine, went to the GP and got to hear the babys heartbeat again which was lovely and reassuring. I am now on anti nausea tablets which are helping, but have made me so sleepy! I feel drunk! Babys giving me lots of little flutters and popping sensations now too :)

Today has been a good day though, despite still being groggy. My finished wedding dress arrived! It is perfect, Im so happy with it! and I got a call from the Body Shop, and I got the job I applied for!!!! I finally have a job, and they dont mind about the pregnancy, which is brilliant! Its not exactly using my degree, but its better than nothing at the moment :)

How are you all doing? x

popping!!!!!!!

I think I felt the baby move!! I'm 15 weeks, and a few nights ago, I got a feeling, like popping candy in my tummy. I've got it a couple of times since, and i think its the baby!!!!! I'm so excited :)


I have been rubbish at taking bump pictures. one will be coming in the next few days!


until then, here are some lovely bits and pieces I must have for my bump & the baby:

click on the pictures to go to their original source :) x

13 week scan!

My dating scan was yesterday. I was so nervous and scared!! I was having nightmares for days before about everything going wrong, and it being bad news. I had read so many horror stories (I know i shouldn't) about bad scans, and read about not bad scans but how they can be tricky. I read a story about one woman who went and they couldnt find the baby, so they got her to go for a walk for an hour and come back. I knew that would terrify me if that happened. So I was preparing for the worst.


My heart was beating so fast when we went in there, but as soon as the little ultrasound thingy was on my tummy, there it was on the screen, our little baby!!! I have never felt so happy. I knew immediately everything was ok, our little one is so energetic and playful! It was jumping about all over the place, kicking its little legs and waving its arms. We saw it sucking it's thumb, and even saw it drinking the amniotic fluid! It was opening its little mouth and swallowing!! I couldn't believe how much detail we could see, we could even see its tiny toes wriggling. It was so so amazing!! I just melted. I think David did too :) Heres our beautiful, lovely little baby:

In the picture, it is sucking its thumb, and the other arm is down by its side, and you can see its little toes curled round too! I can't stop smiling. The lay showed us it real size too on the screen, I couldn't believe how big it was! It doesn't feel that long ago I was reading it was the size of a poppy seed. It is now the size of a banana! I can't wait for our next scan now :)

I am 13 weeks, and feeling so much better. in The past week, I have only been sick a couple of times. And Im not feeling sick constantly, and my tiredness is easing too. I would really like a pregnancy glow now though, I look a wreck! my skin and hair are greasier than usual, and I have big dark circles under my eyes. I will post a new picture of my bump soon too, it's growing! I've noticed people staring at my belly when Im out and about now., probably wondering whether Im pregnant or been eating too much! :)

Hope your all well

x

p.s: our due date is the 10th March :)

12 weeks!

I'm 12 weeks tomorrow!! I've been waiting for the milestone for what feels like years. mainly because;

a. dating scan & the reassurance everything is ok, therefore risk of miscarriage going down massively. and

b. morning sickness being over!

however, because of going on holiday from this friday for a week, I haven't got my scan until the 6th of September, the day I become 14 weeks!! so frustrating. and the morning sickness and tiredness and all the other lovely trimester 1 symptoms show no sign of being over anytime soon. lovely!

BUT this week, the most exciting thing happened!! I have had my angel sounds fetal doppler for a few weeks now, but all we could hear was the placenta and faint sounds that we thought were the heartbeat. but a few days ago, we heard this:

I cried!! I was so happy. It was such a relief. The best sound ever.

And, as you can see from the first picture, I have a little bump! I haven't been able to fit in any of my normal jeans for a few weeks now, and have quite a few maternity clothes already. I feel like I'm huge, and it's so early still! I love my bump :)

 x

our story

so, a little introduction...

my name is Rosie. Im engaged to a lovely and silly boy called David. David and I have known each other since we were 11, we met at school. I thought he was annoying, but he was very persistent, and wouldnt take no for an answer. We finally became a couple when we were 15, and have been in love ever since. We have gone through leaving school, getting our first jobs, and going to university together, graduating at the same time. We have a hamster and two pet rats, and lived together for 3 years. We've just moved back in with our parents after finishing uni as we have absolutely no money, but are going to be living with each other again as soon as possible! It was two weeks ago we graduated, and last weekend I turned 21. David is also 21. It was 2 days before our graduation, we found out the news. I am pregnant. It wasn't planned, it was a complete shock. We are having a baby!! Both of us have always wanted to be parents, and love children, we just didn't expect it to be quite so soon! But we feel so lucky and are so excited.

The day of my 21st birthday party, David was still at our old uni house, 2 hours and 30 minutes away, finishing moving out and doing the last few days of the job he has there. He called me to tell me he was running late because of things at work, and I was sure he wasn't going to make it to my party. That morning I was suffering from awful morning sickness, in my pyjamas, and looked like death. My family were out, and there was a knock on the door. I answered, and there he was, on one knee, with my great grandmothers diamond and emerald ring, and he asked me marry him. I cried and just hugged him. It was so lovely!! Before the pregnancy, he had been planning on taking me to Rome this summer to propose, but the baby needs that money now. And I liked the fact he proposed on my doorstep, while I was in pyjamas :)  

I am 8 weeks pregnant, feel very sick and tired all the time, and couldn't be happier right now!

David is my best friend. I love him more than I can explain, and we are going to have a baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

 x